That last week between Christmas and New Years always gets me in a weird place. It almost doesn’t feel real to exist at this time, if that makes any sense. Once I’m past my post-Christmas blues, I tend to get in a weird state of self-reflection about the year, so I decided to share that with you all today!
2018 was eventful, for sure.
I Quit My Job!
I think my biggest accomplishment this year was quitting my full-time job because it was making me miserable and sick. I quit without having anything else lined up, which was absolutely terrifying for me but I was in no state to interview, redo my resume, and write cover letters due to my confidence being in shambles and my anxiety being at an all-time high.
My Parents Moved to Another State!
My parents had been planning a move to Florida for a while, and were super serious about it to the point where they bought the condo they wanted in 2017 and paid both mortgages for a while! My mom got a job down there in August, and my dad followed her in October. It’s been a major adjustment getting used to living without my parents just a 30-minute drive from me… but they both love living down there and have jobs that they like way more.
I Launched My Blog!
I have wanted to start a blog quite literally since 2016. I had a lot of fears about starting and it took me a long time to take the plunge. But I am already SO HAPPY that I started blogging and I am obsessed with it! I have so many plans for this little baby of mine and I’m excited to share my thoughts with the world and hopefully help others along the way!
2018 had a lot of negative things too, unfortunately…. I spent a large portion of this year being unhappy, depressed, and feeling stuck. It was only until the last couple of months that I actually started to feel capable enough to make some changes.
2018 also threw me some of the hardest things I’ve ever dealt with so far.
My grandpa had triple bypass surgery and a valve replacement in February and it was absolutely terrifying for me. He was in the hospital for a week afterwards. He recovered well and all that, but those first few weeks after surgery were scary, and I was terrified that something was going to go wrong.
On March 7, 2018, my precious cat passed away and I was completely devastated. I am actually still grieving over her and I still periodically will cry for her. I have lost cats before, but I was exceptionally close to her and I had her since she was a teeny baby.
Mental Health Deterioration
I spent most of the year depressed, angry, and anxious as a direct result of the job I was miserable in. I had just left a job that I had been at for nearly 5 years, so at first I chalked it up to new job jitters. Eventually it started to eat away at me an it turned me into… not someone I wanted to be. One time I got sick and had to miss work, and I was actually relieved that I didn’t have to go in even though I was incapacitated in bed with a high fever.
I only worked there for seven months, but it defined a lot of my 2018 experience.
The last few months of 2018 have given me the chance to heal.
After my cat passed away, I was not interested in getting a new one or even getting close to another cat. A few months later, another kitty started showing up around our house… and it eventually got to the point where he just started following us inside.
I also started seeing a therapist to work on getting my confidence back and to take my life in some sort of actionable direction. I’ve been in and out of therapy before and I finally feel like I’ve found a therapist I click with AND can afford to see regularly. If there’s ever even the smallest feeling in your mind that you need to see a therapist, DO IT if you have the financial means.
The cool thing about my parents moving to Florida is that we also got to do some cool touristy things together this year. We went to an alligator farm, a garden park, the Fountain of Youth, and toured a few historic locations.
That’s about it for my 2018 in review!! I also wrote about my 2019 goals… if you haven’t seen that yet, you can check those out right here!
Was your 2018 good, bad, or somewhere in between? Let me know!